Your Birthday

It was your birthday

and I was the gift he presented

To you,

With you in mind,

he picked it…

the date,

place,

yes, even the time.

He loaned himself,

and

I borrowed the moment.

Cheers to yooooou,

It was me that he came to see

on

your birthday.

Your gift he desired to spend on me

willfully.

Loving on,

doting on,

devoting your time,

while

giving his attention.

He gave us both a promise:

his illusion

It was I who answered when you called,

said “Hi.”

Hello,

your rebuttal was “Why?”

Goodbye

I opted to end it…

prematurely

it pained me to digest the sound of your hurt;

the sadness,

of which I had the task of bearing witness.

And yes, I’ll even admit it:

I aided the culprit.

It was he who created this madness;

perpetual confusion.

No vested interest,

just left us with the high priced tag,

our emotions taxed,

and we had to pay.

Please forgive me Dear Birthday Girl,

let’s toast to us…

Sealed with Your Kiss,

On My Lips

Copyright © 2012 Rayne

I Bid You Farewell

Today, I'd like to bid farewell to a lifelong friend.

You have been in my life for as long as I can recall. We've had a lot of time spent together. We've argued, we've struggled, and yes we fought, but I refused to allow you to keep me in bondage. Only you possess the ability to stimulate within me the intense feelings of: nervousness and butterflies in my stomach, you make me sweat like no other, cause me to cry during my most vulnerable times, and relentlessly, you keep me blushing while bearing a smile on my face.

However, our relationship has been quite tumultuous. You constantly doubt me, incessantly exploit me, and vehemently make a mockery of me. I refuse to allow you to hinder my progress any longer. No more in hiding, the removal of all fear, and weakened emotions eradicated. Although I have grown and have learned a lot from you, it is time for me to reclaim my life as I say goodbye. Sorry to disappoint you, but I have to break this cycle of imprisonment.

It's been quite a roller coaster ride, but I am glad to have known you because through you, I have become a stronger person. You have instilled in me confidence, esteem, self-assurance, and strength. I thank you my friend for aiding in my transformation, and although you may disapprove, I shall now continue my life without you. Good bye my friend Anxiety. I wish you well, and may think of you from time to time, but I will never see you again. I release you to go on about your journey... without me. (remove the handcuffs) I bid you Farewell.

Signed,
Your life long friend Rayne